School has always been hard for me as I struggle with a lot of subjects. It was hard getting the help because programs I needed weren't offered through the schools. I would always feel dumb attending. When a placement became available for special ed I had to change schools. It was for grade 7. I was nervous going to a new school. It was going good until the middle of the school year. I never wanted to go to school anymore and I was always feeling sick. My Mom would take me to the doctors, almost on a daily basis and everything was fine. All I knew was I wasn't feeling good and couldn't go to school anymore. My Mom was tired of taking frequent trips to the doctors but she agreed to take me one last time. The last trip to the doctors, they noticed signs of depression. I was then referred to a psychiatrist. At 12 years old I was diagnosed with severe social anxiety and depression. It was caused by a group of jealous girls. I was a huge fan of Hilary Duff, still am to this day. I loved collecting items from her "Stuff By Hilary Duff" line. I remember they use to always ask me if I had certain items and if I did I would say yes. I didn't think it was a bad thing. I was only answering a question. They then started to write nasty things about me online and send me email threats. I never wanted to leave the house. I was housebound for almost 2 months. I would only leave once a week for therapy sessions. I was even too scared to go to the grocery store with my Mom. My only happiness was Hilary Duff. I would listen to her music and watch movies she starred in all the time. I wore her clothing line 24/7 and felt safe. I carried a picture of her everywhere I went. When I was feeling down I pulled it out and instantly felt better. It was called a "power symbol". There were many days I didn't want to live anymore. I would look at Hilary and know there was hope. She gave me light that nothing and nobody else did. I don't have any siblings, although I wish I had a big sister. I looked up to Hilary and pulled a lot of strength from her. Running became available through a therapy program. It helped me a lot to be able to do more activities outside of running. I have ran 5-5Ks, 2-10Ks and 1 half marathon. I have always wanted to share my story to help others but I never thought I would be able to. I'm also a huge fan of Demi Lovato. Over the last few years I have been really touched by her story. She goes through a lot of similar struggles as I do. She inspired me to want to share my story to help others. If she can do it, so can I. Lesleigh Bosanac